Post by veruca van sant on Feb 22, 2011 22:46:56 GMT -7
i often try to put into words how much i love you. it drives me to the brink of madness and then back again. i could never imagine being without you again. most of the horrors i faced last time are all locked away, not even you knew i had to face them. i know my actions upset you and those would just make it worse.
but it's all better now. i don't wake up in the middle of the night, shaking in fear and sobbing. i sleep peacefully because you're beside me, holding me and protecting me like you do so well. i look forward to every day, instead of dreading it and just wishing it was over. i love hearing that you love me. you tell me i'm beautiful and wonderful and sometimes i even come close to believing you. i trust you with my life, and i know that we'll always have this.
i imagine in 50 years i'll show you this. you'll need reading glasses to see the small print, but we'll be sitting together in our house and you'll read it, and tell me that you love me. just as you do now. i can't wait for that day. everything i'll have ever wanted will have come true.
